Chapter 0144
My mother kicked you out. If the pack knew, it would never end there. One or more of them would take it further and attempt more evil. You would never live in peace wherever you ran.
I didn’t have warriors at my command. I was still in training. And studying to take over the family business. My dad was dying. There was so much going on. I didn’t think I could protect you because I can only be in one place at a time. And I couldn’t stand the thought…”
He trailed off, clenching his lips and shaking his head.
“Hiding! Sneaking was the only way I could be with you.
When I feared you wanted to stop hiding, rejecting you was the only out. So I ended it. No one was supposed to know, but Megan Deere told my mother.”
I knew it.
“And I blamed and hated you that it was over, Sara. I told myself that you tricked me, pretending to be innocent, not reading our agreement. I was angry at the world. I was mad at you.”
He lifted his hand in defeat.
“I let myself think you were all about the money… or lifting yourself above your “lowly” status. I was foolish, Sara. It was easier to think bad about you because if I blamed myself, I’d go mad.
But I’m a changed male now. Because of you, I’m learning what it means to be brave. To be
- selfless and take courage.
You have to understand that I was raised to think that talking or smiling at you was taboo. Unclean. Unless you’re running my errands.
Sleeping with you? That was unthinkable. Even though we’re fated, they believe you ought to bathe in the sacred stream under a waxing moon before I touch you.
I’m not making excuses for my mistakes. I just want you to see things from my perspective. Please.
We feel so right, Sara. Yet back then, I always thought it was wrong to set my sights on you. But I couldn’t give you up. It was unfair to me. Goddess heard my prayer and gifted you to me.”
“You did give me up, Nick. You did at last,” I accused him. “You rejected me. Tore my heart to pieces.”
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His throat bobbed as he swallowed.
“I am so sorry.” He moved closer.
His hand shook slightly as he reached for mine. I didn’t pull away. I couldn’t. He loved me. My mate. The father of my child. He had always loved me.
He took my left hand and placed it on his beating heart.
“My heart was torn to shreds too, I promise you. Nothing was the same for me. I died, Sara. I just didn’t realize it till that day of hearing.
When you walked out the door, I realized that seeing you again, having you near me, had brought me back to life. Had revived my soul.”
I couldn’t help but laugh through the tears.
“Is that why you wanted control of my life?”
“Controlling your life was the only way I knew to keep you close. I didn’t know what else to do. You hated me with such passion, remember?
When you moved out of the penthouse, I felt the heart–rending pain of our separation all over again. Another sharp cut on my unhealed wounds.
Our child was my only link to you. I was using him to keep you close and didn’t even know it till the day of the verdict.
But I’m not that petty, idiotic male anymore. I know what I want, and I know I can’t live without
you.”
He moved closer till there was no distance between us.
“I can’t go on without you, Sara. So please, I am begging you, give me another chance. I’ll love you right this time. I have what it takes. I’ll be good to you.”
He lifted his thumb hesitantly and gently brushed a tear from my cheek before touching my lips gently.
“l–i can’t,” I stammered, forcing my feet backwards.
I shook my head rapidly. He didn’t let go of my hand, and I didn’t have the strength to force it out of his grip.
I felt his heart slump as his thumb left my lips.
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