A slap of reality
Isabella’s POV
“Has everything been resupplied at the clinic?” I asked Jane, we were currently in my office discussing some important matter for the pack.
“The last batch of supplies will be delivered tomorrow, Luna.”
I nodded my head, slowly leaning towards the desk as I ran my fingers on my temples. I wasn’t able to get a proper sleep last night. Xavier’s words yesterday kept echoing inside my mind. Added by the fact that he didn’t even sleep in our room last night.
The thought of him sleeping in the same room with Sophia sent a bitter taste in my mouth. I hate to think about it. But I couldn’t deny the fact that it was one of the most possible reasons why he didn’t show up in our room.
There were only two bedrooms in our house, so where could he possibly sleep?
My wolf has been feeling down too. She was probably as hurt as me and refuses to even communicate with me.
“Luna…”
Jane’s voice snapped me out of my thoughts.
“I think you should get some rest first.” She spoke in concern. “Everything has been handled well. Don’t push yourself too hard.”
My heart swelled hearing her voice filled with concern. Jane is my closest aide in this pack. With rumors going around the pack and with my current state now, it’s not impossible that she could tell what I’m currently going through.
“I’ll have some fresh air out first.”
As I stood up, the world around me suddenly spin. I held my temple in one hand, with the other holding the edge of the table to support my body.
“Should I take you to the clinic?” Jane’s voice was filled with concern.
I pursed my lips and shook my head. A few seconds later, the dizziness I suddenly felt started to take off, so I waved my hand at her.
“I’ll just get some rest, as you said.” Forcing a smile, I left my office and walked towards our house.
Our house was separate from the pack house where our office are located. As I arrived, I was
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greeted by the silence. However, an unknown feeling crept into my heart as I took a step
inside.
I can smell Xavier’s scent. He was here but I couldn’t find any trace of him in the living room. The kitchen also sounds empty.
But then, I suddenly heard sounds coming from one of the rooms at the second floor.
I turned stiff. My feet felt heavy, but I manage to ascend the stairs and walk slowly towards
the room where the sounds were coming from.
The sounds came from the room where Sophia was staying.
My heart was beating rapidly in my chest. I found myself filled with dread, my palms turning
sweaty as the sounds became clearer in my ears.
It was sounds of two people panting.
“Oh, Xavier baby, I want you…” Sophia’s words were like lightnings that struck my whole body.
I stopped and stood still on my spot. I couldn’t move anymore, and my eyes only stayed at the
slightly opened door of the room where Sophia and probably… Xavier, were currently at.
“Tell me,” Sophia’s voice laced with seduction entered my ears once again. “I’m much better
than your pathetic wife, right?”
I couldn’t bring myself to believe what I was hearing. My husband is sharing bed with his first
love in ‘our‘ very own house… It was frozen on my spot… I wanted to cover my ears and
persuade myself that I was just hearing some things.
But when I suddenly heard Xavier’s familiar voice, my whole world came crashing down.
“Mmm.” His voice filled with a hint of groaning brought a slap to my face.
I could not be mistaken. It was indeed my husband inside… with Sophia.
And their next words added even more salt to my wounds.
“Divorce her already so we can get married, babe.” Sophia’s sultry voice came with a
suggesting tone.
It feels like as if a bucket of cold water has been poured all over my body. If earlier was
enough to shock me, then now, I felt as if my whole being was being destroyed.
Xavier’s reply was only a hum, but that simple sound he made was enough to send thousands of needles stabbing through my heart.
I found myself walking out of the house, feeling pained and lost. I was walking with a
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disoriented pace. My body feels numb. I didn’t even notice that I already made my way back to my office.
“Luna, I thought you’ll be resting.” Jane was surprised when she saw me coming back in the
office.
It was surprising that I didn’t cry. I just feel numb, dejected, and tired. Jane probably noticed the look on my face as she asked me questions in concern.
“Can you please leave for a moment, Jane?” It was all I could muster to say. I was glad my
voice didn’t break.
I didn’t want to make a fool of myself, even after knowing the possibilities of what might happen the next few days.
My husband’s first love is back, and he hadn’t even hesitated to jump into her arms and agree to divorce me just so he could marry her.
As I was finally left alone in my office, a lone tear rolled down my cheeks. I hastily wiped it, chuckling bitterly at my current state.
Three years of waiting for Xavier to love me back has all just been gone to waste. Why was I so stupid that I kept hoping he would love me back?
It’s just been a couple of days since Sophia came back. But reality was slapping me really
hard.
I was definitely no match for his first and true love.
However, as I look around my office, and as the memories of my interaction with the pack members filled my mind, my heart ached even more.
Xavier has already agreed with Sophia. He was probably planning to divorce me and just waiting for the right time, while I was left with a wishful thinking all this time.
Our three years of marriage has not only made me love him more, even though he didn’t reciprocate my feelings. But he was not the only one that made me enjoy staying in this pack.
Being the Luna of this pack has brought me closer to all the pack members. Even though I
didn’t initially came from this pack, I felt accepted. They respect me, and I have grown closer to some pack members.
Over time, I learned to love being the Luna of this pack. But I guess, my time as the Luna is
coming to an end soon.
Did you ever love me?
Isabella’s POV
The following days, I spent my time focusing on pack matters that I needed to handle. It’s been two days and I haven’t gone back to our house and only stayed and slept at the pack house.
In fact, I feel like I couldn’t afford to take a step back inside that house again. Especially after
that incident.
Hearing my own husband sleeping with another woman – his first love, was a huge slap of reality to my face.
“Please take care of yourself, Luna. You should be taking a rest now.”
Jane was with me for almost all the time and was now currently encouraging me to take a break seeing that I almost stumbled on my feet earlier while walking back to my office.
These past few days, I’ve been visited by constant headaches and dizziness. Perhaps it was due to stress, lack of sleep, and the workloads I’ve been doing.
“I’ll just finish this one.”
I wanted to bury myself with workloads so that I could stop thinking all about my problems… even just for a moment. Yet, deep inside me, I felt like rushing things.
I feel like I had to finish my luna duties that are currently needed to be dealt with. I feel like
running out of time.
But as much as I planned to avoid Xavier during these past few days, I know that I need to
face reality sooner or later. And it came sooner than expected.
A servant came and told me that Xavier wanted me at our house. With heavy and burdened steps, I manage to go back at our house… no, I don’t think I have the leverage to call it ‘our‘
house anymore.
A feeling of pain and bitterness washed through me as I finally took a step inside the house.
The feeling turned even worse when I discovered that it was Sophia who was waiting for me in the living room, and there was no trace of Xavier around.
Her smile ignited a burst of flame inside my chest. I admit that… I hate her.
I hate her, because she has Xavier’s love.
“How are you?”
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“What do you want?” I pursed my lips as I faced her.
“I just want to ask how you’ve been doing,” the feigned innocence on her tone made me feel
sick.“–on your last days of being the Luna of this pack.”
Her words evoked different emotions in me. Anger, disappointment, and pain. But I didn’t want to look so pathetic in front of her. I could not allow myself.
“I’m doing well.” I managed to stay composed despite the surging emotions inside me.
Sophia raised her brows. “You knew that Xavier’s planning to divorce you, right?”
I took a deep breath, looking at her with an indifferent gaze. “Even if he is indeed planning to do it, I suppose you should not concern yourself with it.”
“And how can I do that?” She chuckled sarcastically, her eyes showing pride as she continued.
“I’m the one Xavier loves. You’re just someone he married to serve the duties of a Luna. But
now that I’m back…”
She walked forward and stopped only a step away from me. “He’s definitely choosing me. He can’t even wait to get rid of you.”
I gritted my teeth, as I clenched my fists. The pain of my nails digging into my skin was
nothing compared to the pain I was feeling inside my chest.
“You see those papers?”
My eyes travelled towards the papers on the table.
Sophia smirked at me. “He’s just waiting for you to sign it.”
With that, she walked past me while bumping my shoulders. I stumbled but remained rooted
in my spot afterward. It took me a long time to move and pick the papers on the table.
I didn’t expect that this would happen sooner. But now, seeing the words written on the paper
struck me like lightning.
The papers I’m holding are the divorce papers Xavier has prepared. But he still hadn’t signed
- it.
Perhaps he was waiting for me to sign first… to save me a little bit of dignity?
I wanted to ask him so many questions, yet the realization hit me that he probably didn’t even
want to see me cut all these thoughts.
He probably got too fed up, staying with someone he doesn’t love. And now that the person he
loves is back, I have no room in here.
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Even the divorce papers were personally handed to me by Sophia, and that was a huge slap to my face.
Does he even consider my feelings? I smiled bitterly. Why am I even asking this when the
answer was pretty much clear already? I was too pathetic.
“WHAT have you done?!”
I didn’t expect to finally come face to face with him a few hours after I received the divorce
papers. And things got even worse when I was faced by his furious appearance, supporting a
crying Sophia beside him.
All the words I wanted to ask him got struck on my throat. I don’t even get it. Why does he
look so mad at me?
“What are you talking about?” I managed to speak amidst the surging emotions inside me.
Xavier narrowed his eyes at me. “I didn’t make you a Luna so that you could abuse your
authority!”
“Xavier, s–stop it. I’m alright.” Sophia spoke in a weak tone beside him.
It was only now I noticed that her hair was disheveled. There were some marks on her arms and her face looked as if she had just finished crying. The confusion in my head grew. But it was immediately filled with disappointment when I realized that Xavier was blaming me.
“I did not allow you to hurt her.”
His cold yet mad voice pierced something into my heart. I felt so broken. Was he blindly blaming me for Sophia’s current state?
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” It was all I could muster to say before finally leaving the area.
I couldn’t get myself to stay there, knowing the person I love was clearly defending his true love and even blaming me without any evidence.
Am I too shallow, or is he? Sophia probably made up some story again and put the blame on me. And Xavier couldn’t even get himself to know the insides of the story and kept blindly believing in her words. I felt like I was being torn apart.
“We’re not yet done talking.”
A wave of dizziness came through me as I managed to reach my room and supported myself on the wall. Xavier came walking from behind and quickly entered the room with his
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furious–looking face.
“What else do you want me to say?” Amidst the nausea I was feeling, this time I managed to snap back at him. “What’s the use if you only keep believing what she’s telling you?”
He looked taken back for a moment, but then it was immediately replaced by annoyance.
“You’re telling me she’s lying?” He pursed his lips and narrowed his eyes at me. “She’s defenseless and still recovering. Among the people of this pack, you’re the only one she’s
encountered-”
“So, you’re telling me that I was the one who attacked her?” I chuckled, bitterness dripping in my tone. “Do you really think I’m that petty to do that to your woman?”
He remained pursing his lips. This time, I managed to meet his gaze with the same intensity.
“I won’t let this happen again.”
“As you wish…” My voice lowered. I was glad it didn’t break down. Despite the pain I was feeling, both emotionally and physically, I managed to find the papers in the drawer.
“Here are the divorce papers.”
I shoved the papers into his chest and walked back to the closet, trying to calm myself down.
“What games are you playing right now?” To add even more salt to the wound, his words managed to destroy the little bit of defense I had in
my heart.
“This is what you want, right?” I forced a smile on my lips. “I’ve already signed it.”
His eyes darkened before I saw him tossing the papers on the ground.
“Stop with this act of yours right now.” There was a hint of growl in his tone, and it almost
made me submit. In fact, he was still the alpha of this pack, the one with the highest authority. He can make anyone in this pack submit to him.
But the pain that has been accumulating in my chest has topped all my emotions.
“Xavier…” The sound of his name felt so familiar yet foreign on my lips. It brought countless
emotions in me, but I remained standing, looking straight into his eyes with the little bit of
dignity left in me.
“In fact, I’m already tired too.” I murmured slowly, meeting his gaze. He looked taken back by
my words, his cold and indifferent eyes showing some unknown glint of emotion as he looked
at me.
But I managed to smile. “In our three years of marriage, did you ever love me?”
